Tuesday Night

Well its finally Tuesday night... There are so many things that I need to do today... But then something struck me... Therefore I'm not going to call KM and Tracy up anymore... I would prefer to leave something here on my blog...
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To KM
I'm glad that you moved on in life... I'm quite happy about that... I wanna say thank you for everything you gave me... All those 11 months just shot pass me in 2 hours... Its like heaven on Earth... Thanks... And I'm sorry too... Looking back at those 11 months I see myself treating you more as a friend than what I'm supposed to treat you... I'm sorry about all the events and actions that I have done to you...

About August... You are right about what I'm going to do... I was going to buy you a huge huge teddy bear and a bouquet of roses on your birthday and put it in your house... I know it sounds real silly but its the last part of the gift that I promise you... But its too late... It wouldn't happen anymore...

Well I wanna wish you all the best for your PMR and also your relationship with him... I guess he's doing a far better job than me... So don't worry okay???

There's something which I hope you could do for me... Can you promise me that no matter what happens please keep that lovely smile on your face??? All the promises that I asked you to keep last time... You can just forget all about them... Its going to be invalid soon...

I'm sorry that I didn't and wouldn't call you tonight... I don't wanna ruin your relationship or anything... And I'm really sorry... After all I've just said... I want you to hate me and forget me... Forget that I ever existed... Don't ever look back...


To Tracy
Hello!!! How are you??? You might not notice this last message for you but its alright... Maybe someday you might see this... I wanna say thanks for being such a wonderful friend for about 4 years... Come to think of it... Its quite funny when we first met each other... I could still remember the 1st drama that we did... It was quite an amazing time...

To me you've been like an older sister... I wanna thank you for helping me everytime I'm in need or when I have any troubles in life... Even though we are best friends for like so long its kinda funny that we only hugged once ^^... Anyways I wanna say sorry that I made you angry or sad sometimes... And I'm really sorry that I didn't tell you about this... I don't wanna disrupt your studies for your exam soon...

Well I can't think of anything much to say here unless we can still met someday... I'm sorry I couldn't be there anymore... If you wanna hate me or scold me please do... But its fun that at least we had a great time before you hate me... No matter what I do... I'll always see you as my best friend even though you might not...

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I think that's all I could say for now... Tonight I'm going to do something which I think everyone is gonna think its silly or stupid... But I don't really mind... I hope after tonight... Everyone could hate me and forget that I ever existed... Even though its gonna land me in Hell... I'm prepared for it... I'm really sorry... These 18 years has been fun with you all...

I might update again maybe later at 10.30... And I think I'll take 14...