My Deepest Apologies

These days I realized something... Something that I should have realized long time ago... I couldn't believe I only knew it a few days ago... My attitude has changed... I've changed a lot... Broke a lot of hearts... There has been days which I don't even know who I am... That's why I would wanna take this time off... To apologize to everyone that I know...
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To That Someone Special
I wanna start this post by apologizing to you first... Those past 11 months has been perfect... Much more than perfect... I wanna thank you for all those precious memories... Nothing can substitute everything that I've been through... I've been wondering alone for these few days... I started to learn slowly that I didn't fulfill my duties as your boyfriend in the past... I didn't fulfill that relationship last time and now I'm regretting about it... I've been really selfish and I know that I don't seem like I'm caring much about you... I wanna apologize to you about that... I guess that's why we broke up...

The next thing that I wanna apologize is the past month... I'm sorry about all my silly and foolish acts about suicide... I really wanna say sorry to you... And those desperations and forcing you to come back... I'm really sorry... I've been really pathetic... I lost all my chances and yet during that time I didn't let you go... Come to think of it I'm a damn pathetic guy for doing all those... I'm really sorry... But I finally understand what it means when you truly love someone... You would have to make sacrifices and you would do anything to let her have her happiness... Even though it hurts you more than anything... You would go as far as possible to see the love of your life happy... So keep your gorgeous smile on your face alright?? I'm sorry that I'm so pathetic that time... Hope your new boyfriend is the right one for you...

Well I've been keeping your promise and still hasn't cut my hair ^^... Hope you still keep what we promised...


To My Dearest Friend, Tracy
Well I wanna apologize to you too... I wanna thank you first of all for being such a great friend to me for about 4 years... I see you as my best friend for life and also thanks for helping me in everything in life... If you aren't there at times I could have already died... That's how important you are to me... I wanted to apologize for my recent behaviors... You gave me a lot of good advice but I didn't listen to them... I wanna say sorry about that... I'm sorry that I made you mad cause of that silly attitude... But no matter how much you scold me or how much you hate me... I still see you as my best friend and will always be there for you... That's my promise to you... And I'm sorry about that attitude that time...

Finally I wanna say thanks for being there with me when I need someone to talk to... Thanks...


To All My Friends And People Who Know Me
I wanna apologize and say sorry to my friends here today... My attitude these days has been a really bad one... I'm sorry that I scolded and shouted the whole class that day... It must have been a weird day to all of you... I wanna apologize to all my school friends too... I know sometimes my attitude really sucks and sometimes it gets people on their nerves... I'm really sorry about that... And also a few strangers at ECA on Thursday... I'm sorry I suddenly shoot my temper at you guys... I was just furious about you guys taking the games without asking... Sorry about that...



To My Family
This post is also dedicated to my parents... I wanna say sorry for making you guys so angry nearly everyday... I know I didn't complete much of the work that I have that's why I deserve those scoldings... I'm sorry...
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I think that's all I could say for now... If I left anything out that I didn't mention... Please just tell me... I don't ask everyone for forgiveness but I hope I could apologize to everyone in my life... These days I learnt that life is short so I have to express everything before it ends... And I wanna thank everyone for those wonderful times that we have had...